a colored spectrum

dependency

am i very dependent on Joshua?
cannot do without seeing him even for 2 days consecutively!
at least seeing him for half hour makes me happy. don't have to do anything or go anywhere.
just be together. see him, hug him and be hugged. hear his voice, feel him play with my hair.
he is a big integrated part of my life!

baby, good luck for coming exams! God bless you with guidance and determination.
you're very bright, keep the sparks in you ignited!
drink lotsa PLAIN WATER. not sweetened drinks! take panadol too! u're falling ill!

me? 10 days to my 1st paper. freaking scared tt i'm pee-ing in my skirt...
1st paper is thai historiography. case studies. closed book.
the examiner is a self-confessed nasty bastard. yes, he is a fanatic hell-driver. no chances.

trying my best to prepare the best i can. better stop watching that stupid Naruto!
but after cramming 4 readings in one afternoon.... i really need to watch something silly!
urgh.... still have japanese and southeast asian history. what the hell!

i suddenly feel FEAR. but why should i be scared? i've been doing fairly average so i won't do badly, right? ok, self consolation. but no reason to fret either. just keep hanging in there.
like Michele said, everything would be over so. i will keep that in mind.

don't know why am i doing history.
i love geography. but NUS doesn't offer decent physical geog.
my Dad too poor to send me to Canada or Australia so too bad for me. stuck on tis island.
history? coz it interesting as compared to the rest. but hell... it's getting boring.

well.... i shouldn't lament. i chose it. best choice out of what's offered.
so jus gonna put in my best effort, juggle my messy life at the same time.
finish up NUS nicely in hopefully in another 2 - 3 years? and get the hell out of that damn place!

bah......... why is everyone sick? i'm habving diarrhea the whole evening.
grandma is down with flu. doggie is 'heaty'. is it thw weather or lousy immune system or snacking on rubbish???

posted by Veen @ 23:39